i hate and i love....

i hate e nausea tt's hovering around for so many days, hate e giddiness tt surrounds my head threatening another fall if i dun concentrate on walking and i hate blowing my nose every 5 mins and seeing my nose peel and feels like i should really get another nose.

i love e satisfaction of having one project down though e process was so difficult i was so close to calling it quits.

i love her for not giving up, spurring me on when she was tt close to giving up as well and made me tear when reading her entry.
i love her for having a big heart, her unconditional love for me and hanging on despite all e shit and her horrid migraines.
i love her for staying up e night helping me with all e drawings when she hasnt slept for 30 hours without one word of complaint, smile at me and said its not tt big a deal.
i love her for hearing me whine all e time and yet never got sick but said e words tt surely would make me smile and assure me she'd be my strongest pillar forever.
i love you jesus, for clearing my thoughts and plant tt nagging thought in my mind reminding me i forgotten one vital element in my report and gave me time to put it in.
this week really left me feeling very very drained, i need a good rest and put all e bad feelings aside. i need ur assurance whether we're important to you, whether we mean as much to you as u to us cos e pain and hurt you inflicted cannot be forgotten. trust and honesty are not mutually exclusive..