clinging on to e faith..

you know how sometimes when shit hits, it comes full-blown? you just get screwed over and over again and i think to myself maybe just maybe im a magnet for trouble..

a shuffle in the leader in cell group, scares e shit out of me really and it's not something everyone will understand cos it's hard to explain church stuffs. intensive talk with david and group last night till 6am and attending cell grp 6 hours later was a huge challenge, pretty damn crazy really but im seeing things in a new perspective..e tears shed and e hearts broken but it's for everyone's good in e long run.

I'LL HAVE FAITH! :)

i know ure hurting dear girl and yeah u think i dun understand e shit ure going thru..im not you as u very clearly pointed out but im not going to lie to you and appease you with nice words just to soothe ur broken heart. i dun like seeing you being taken advantage of tts why i want you to wake up from this daze and live on stronger..u may not see it from my point and im not hoping you to overnight but i need you to trust that it's not i dun care or dun understand you cos if tts what u think then i guess i was wrong in our friendship..

projects are draining me out completely and sometimes i just wana give it up and call it quits..it gets so tough and its getting a little hard to just breathe and sleep normally. at times it's really hard to hang on and words cant even explain how hard it is, but im just hanging on cos no one told me it's gonna be easy, just that e end result gonna be worth it.

im gonna take a chance at having hope and being optimistic cos i realised how if im stronger, people around me will be encouraged to do so. if david didnt point this out, i probably would never have known this and carry on being a selfish ass.

go on and throw me more shit..im gonna take them down one by one! :)

as of now..im launching my optimistic campaign, im gonna do whatever it takes to screw things back e way i love.