take me and lead me

- the people who should be voted world's kindest souls. -

service reflection is a pain. have no idea how to continue and the dateline is on tues. damn!

e week have been busy. projects are forever a pain everywhere and this's only the beginning of all tortures.

and this week was full of surprises.

met up with the three ladies yesterday, short catch up but nevertheless filled with fun. sometimes i wish i was more like my friends.

i wish i had the patience of pearlyn. girl i have never told you this but i really admire the patience waiting for him with no promises or strings attached. all of us thought it would just be a summer fling but till now ur heart is still with him, weird fate ar? sometimes we dunoe why its him instead of somebody else.
i dunoe where i can find the strength if i was there in ur shoes pining for my love, i'd probably just chose to move on and wish him the best but you held on with the love and ure still waiting for the day he'll return. i really hope he comes back and put a beautiful full-stop to this relationship.

i wish i had may's courage and forthrightness. im sorry abt e way things turned out between siwei and you and ure right, all of us were wrong about him and its scary how being with this guy for a year plus and u still dunoe who he is deep down. i admire your courage to do what's right and put aside this love that proved to be so wrong.
girl, i wish i could have beautiful comforting words for you but its more than words you need so anytime you need a listening ear pls dun hesitate to pick up the phone and call or drop me a msg and meet me. im sorry im always busy and turning down our dates, i promise to make a bigger effort for you.

i wish i had ginli's talented mind and hands. e bags and many other accessories are so gorgeous you cant believe they were made from her very own hands. i wana be ur first customer dear girl, i'll buy ur designed pouches and urge all my other friends to buy as well.
sometimes i feel i no longer understand you but sometimes looking at you, i just feel all e love of our friendship. words are few but wadz in the heart is important and recalling the days back in siglap with you just warmed my heart and no matter how drifted we are i love u all e same babe.

i wish i had hammy's quick thinking, fast reaction and the beautiful smile. she's e smartest person i've ever seen and girl being with you is like having summer everyday cos you make me smile. all e guys just love e sight of you and cant wait to have their hands on you and make you theirs but nic proved to be e lucky one here!
thankyou for being here all these while, there to tell me wadz right and wrong. there to tell me which guy is worth falling for and which one isnt and not let my heart be trampled over again. you stood up for me when no one else did and i cant tell you how touched i am with ur actions and i dun want to lose this friendship.

i wish i had jean's stubborness in her choices and stood by them. rujiao's kind heart to always be there and help. becca's big heart to always forgive no matter who hurt her. marc's independence and strong nature to get thru so many stuffs. nel's nonchalant attitude and smtimes really kind heart. zhong's confidence and the good kind of arrogance. shu hiang's calm mind and sweet words.

and lastly qing's ability to make me smile. till this day, both of us still cant quite understand how simliar we are. we arent in the same family, not born in the same month or have the same grp of friends but we just share so much in common and girl im so amazed by all the same emotions we share. chatting with you can just take everyday cos we wont run out of topics and we can just do silly stuffs and laugh with joy so easily.
you din judge me when i told you maybe its more den a crush, you simply listened and knew how i felt. i fear what will become of it but its too late to take a detour now. im sorry there're problems between choc and you recently but i noe girl ure going to overcome even the biggest hurdle cos you can give so much and ur love is so strong.

so many wonderful people in life, god just make me a lucky girl and those occasional good surprises he blesses me is enough to make my heart feel touched and contented.