two weeks seemed to have flashed past so quickly and it officially marks the end of the 2 weeks break we have and also the last of the holidays we'll have in poly life.
im glad this two weeks was well spent cos everyone on my schedule was met and im more than happy. choir stuffs are looking to be more stable now and im glad that's happening, going back all these mths to help proved to be useful cos the relationships with all the various people formed was remarkable.
forming a bond with e kids took a long while, gaining their trust and respect didnt happen overnight, a big grp like them requires more than just tact but also patience cos i've been there and done that.
e chance to sing with them again was awesome, its like coming back to home to a place im most comfortable and happy at. there are still problems we have to work to get rid of but i keep telling myself all be worth it in the long run and that's honestly what i believe in cos no one else is worth all these efforts and hard work.
3 mths ago, i was crying and being so worried abt this little kids that i couldnt sleep and couldnt stop blaming myself for a lot of things ttz happening in the choir now. it seems near impossible to make things better but 3 mths later today, im glad i was so wrong then cos things turned around and things i thought would be doomed for good took a turn for the better now.
if i could turn back e clock, i'd do exactly e same things. people arnd me may not understand why im putting in so much for them and i have ceased to stop explaining myself because i cant seem to find e right words anymore. i realised im tired of explaining and convincing people, now i simply need to convince myself.
going back to choir also brought shuhiang and i back to the old days, losing contact for a couple of years when we went separate ways, e once-a-year-meetup then really took a toll on this friendship and most people would have turned strangers by now but im glad we were able to pick things from where we left the last time we met.
the endless conversations. e crazy act we did during syf day by meeting at 4am cos we were too reeved up to sleep. e way you understood me when i couldnt seem to stop tearing that day when it wasnt comfort i needed but time alone. e way words could be exchanged thru an eye contact. e way we shared e same thoughts and feelings. i cherished all these girl, after all these years who would have guessed we could just picked things up like that?
i havent said how much i appreciate you all these while, i couldnt and wouldnt have e strength for all these without you. i love u my dear friend.
i guess choir is not just abt singing isnt it? a lot of heartache in e midst of it but life wouldnt be complete without all these moments.
meeting up with rujiao and becca was great too, e 3 of us finally got e chance to hang out again and girls thankyou for doing it on my account. i know things probably wont be like e past but lets try and make e future better ok?
im doing e best i can here so help me out this time round alright? pictures will be send soon. =)
managed to meet may pearl and ginli too, was so happy and excited to see them after so long and endless stoodups on my side. thankyou for being so understanding and patient with me all these while girls and oli was so fun who'd think i could play with dogs?
im so happy to see you three and i know each of us are all different and lead all different lives but im glad we're keeping this friendship strong, i may not be there 24/7 for all 3 of you but you girls are in my prayer night after night. we dun often say it, but i know e love in the heart is sufficient to keep all of us going while we're apart yes?
going back to school tmr and i'd be able to see my 3 gorgeous ladies again since we havent talked much since e holidays. lets try and do dinner if time permits alright? i miss you 3 badly. =)
p/s: eugenia, if you do read this i hope the sharing session tmr will benefit all of you alright. i hope you girls will learn to talk things out and leave all e bad feelings in e room and not carry it home. this committee needs every single of you to work hard and a lot of efforts to work. girl, if you need someone to talk to, please dun hesitate to call me cos you know i'll always have time for my little junior. =)
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