take me and lead me

i read ham's blog and it got me all upset and teary too. i cant tag at ur blog girl, no idea why. but i am sure you aren't e only one who's upset abt leaving cos you see, we're upset too.

but im sure this path you chose would be e biggest stepping stone in ur life, its so scary to even think abt it and i must admit this whole sip-saga is scaring the shit out of me im literally suffering from cold feet now.

but honestly who knows what's in store for us? whether the whole thing will turn out good or bad is really one big question mark. i dun even wana picture e day qing and i will have to send jean and you off, without a doubt it's going to be a massive flood and i agree we'll probably laugh our asses off 5 years later but thinking abt it now is so hard.

we dun even get to sit down for lunch nowadays in school, i dun even get to see you girls for more than 10 mins per day and i really miss e time tgt. i guess its a practice for us now isnt it? to learn to be less dependent on each other and to get use to the time apart.

you know other people reading this would think we're acting like kids who cant say bye to their parents.

i cannot help it still, i really am dreading e thought of sip and having you girls so many thousand miles away. its not like we can sms or call each other, e advance technology of msn and skype may be present but we all lead a different life and e rotating shifts will further complicate matters.

wad are e odds of having e same day off and all having the same time off to meet online and catch up?

i really hate the thought of all these and i am trying my best to not think abt it.

to make matters worst, the projs are depriving us of the time to catch up now. day in day out, it's all abt projs and its like the whole long chain of it wont ever end. everyday we go to school,meet up for projs go home and continue racking brains abt it and we call it a day. we repeat the whole process e next day.

lets not talk abt e serious lack of life, im feeling so drained out and depleted. i tell jean everyday i am so tired and smtimes both of us dun even know wad i am tired abt. i guess it's this whole mundane process ttz tiring me out.

i wana go to you guys and whine abt how jean is pushing us every day and occupying all our free slots and not giving us a breather. you two will then smack her for me and we will all laugh abt it knowing she is doing all these for our good at the end of e day.

i miss ham's laughter, qing's lame jokes, sze min's nonsensical remarks and how we will always gang up to bully jean.

i guess im not dealing with all these sudden changes in life very well.....