take me and lead me

school has never been my fav place. from freshman to a junior and another half sem to a senior.

second week of school and e pace is already going so fast or rather too fast.

no one will believe the number of deadlines we have.

others think we exaggerate on the work we have to do but you've no idea how tough it is here.

i wish i could back out now.

but i'll let everyone down and even lose this respect i have for myself.

life is no longer as simple as before.

i trust god has his reasons for everything he has done all these time.

all of us know there's a reason for the outcome of things and we accept it cos this is life.

but sometimes things reach a point when we cant find a solution.

someone has to make a sacrifice.

and i hate it when things reach this stage, its like freaking cancer when you arent given a choice anymore.

and jean i cant tell you how badly i miss you in class.

if this's a test for us, god i hope all of us ace it.

cos this sem is heart-wrenching and the biggest challenge of all.

i pray to god, all of us will find the strength to get thru this semester.

qing, i am sorry i snapped today. there was no reason to at all, my mood was foul and i felt like crying for all these shit and i took it out on you. please forgive me and thankyou for being the ever patient and sweet one and not blame me for it.

i'd probably end up crying more, getting worked up more but you have my word im not giving up anytime soon.

and going to school with you makes me smile.

jean, dun you dare alienate yourself from us.

ure still the lamest and the most thoughtful one among us and i want you to know i love u dearest.

though in different class, you have to stay strong. come to us for help you know we would so gladly help you.

we arent friends for show, we are friends thru thick and thin.

through laughter, tears, pressure and heartache.

dun even think ure bothering us with your problems cos we feel more bothered if you shut yourself off again.

you will always be like a sister to me so you jolly well get the fact that big sisters look out for the younger ones.

so by all means bother us!

those horrendous creatures dare bully you, they watch out!

and girl after what you did today they better think a million times before making things tough for you.

ham, i cant thank god enough for you. for the fact that we're still struggling tgt.

we will never be able to have a bed of roses or all the pretty damn good luck in the world but girl im just lucky enough to have you.

and i meant what i said this afternoon.

i would hold on to you for dear life if i had a choice cos splitting up is absolutely the last option i want.

you make me cry, make me smile, take away the pressure. leave me amazed and awed.

you tolerate my crap, listen to my thrash and allow me to irritate you.

where can i find a cuter and more gracious hammy.

and you three are the most amazing humans i know.

four of us will end up stronger and smarter after this. have faith!

sze min, im sorry ure all alone. i hope class is better now. i feel so good seeing you in school.

have lunch soon kay lovely?