take me and lead me

my results are alright, not too bad if i said so myself.

4 more days and my nightmare will be over. thinking about it, if i really do fail e exam i'll probably enrol again in february. well, that's e worst scenario i can think of but i've no other choice cos my confidence level is pretty near e negative side of the scales.

i cant wait to start working, just wana start doing something.

qing and i went to tp's library to borrow books today and we borrowed so many tell me how no life can we get? we just laid on her sofa and read e day away. this's really getting pathetic.

girl, i know there're no words to soothe e pain in your heart unless he is e one who's providing e words. i wont ask you to be strong cos ure entitled to be sad and weak and cry all your pain out so please dun bother to put up a strong front dun pretend to be fine cos you dun have to pretend in front of me.

and you know you always have all of us to fall back on. take your time to heal and life is going to get better from here onwards.

i probably cant route your life out for you but character determines fate girl. you choose e path you want and im here with you every step to a stronger heart.

rainbows appear after mighty storms babe. rmb e quote you saw at my hse? trust it and trust that god knows what he is doing and has a reason for everything. =)

life isnt as simple and innocent like before.

i guess i've changed a lot since entering this course. changed to e better or worst differs. i was telling qing and hammy, its my priorities that have changed. things that mattered a great deal in e past has taken a back seat and no longer matter so much like before so my views on things changed as well.

rujiao, im sorry if you felt i havent tried hard enough for this friendship, its not that i dun care anymore it's just that some things i feel dun have to be put out in black and white anymore. im sorry i can never handle emotions well and it's a rotten time now to handle emotions cos i've too much on my mind.

e only thing i can do now is to let e friendship handle e changes we've gone thru and to accept that everyone do change as we face different phases of life.

and to tiansiang, thankyou for worrying about us and still take e effort to concern yourself in this but e next time you handle a simliar situation please do hear e stories from both sides first before stating your stand kay. im stronger emotionally then e rest of them but that doesnt make me any less human then they are. anyhow, i know you probably would have handled things in a better way than i did so im sorry if i snapped at you that day.

i miss my sister and i hope she's safe and nothing bad had happened.