take me and lead me

i am complicated.

i realised i tend to let my thoughts run far, very randomly. love is complicated. very in fact or probably i am e one who complicates things.

i can never understand e fact how two people can meet in this big big world and fall in love with each other spent countless great times together and still end up going separate ways after years of living with each other.

or how two randomly people can click almost instantly, fall in love and have a fairytale ending.

or how one person can love e other and not be loved back.

or how two completely seemingly compatible can never fall in love.

is this what people often call fate?

fate that draws or pull two people together or apart.

i craved e companion of a guy after one and a half year but i hate losing e freedom. i miss e feeling of someone there for you constantly and e emotional support but e thought of going separate ways after giving my heart pulls me back. someone who sees through this cold front and search deep for smthing more.

yes there're drawbacks in life and that's e part that sucks most.

why do people marry and divorce eventually while some can never find that someone who can share their innermost thoughts?

and i dun want to be with someone cos of loneliness and i know for sure im not afraid of being alone but its times like this that i feel vulnerable and need someone to tell me what's right and wrong. to keep my sanity for me.

people change at such a fast pace its hard to keep up at times.

people amazes me everyday.

i dun deny im changing everyday too, for e better or worst its everyone's say.

im stronger mentally at least.

this is so random.