take me and lead me

-im pissed off, seriously pissed off. -

in simple terms, the entire system of tp is cocked up. im pissed off!!!

i always tot e creation of CDS sucks, cos why would we want to spend time on doing CDS when it's reductant. without the cu pts, we cant graduate but over e days i've come to terms with it since i still hafta tk it no matter how much i whine but after this incident today it occured to me and i rmb why i hate e tot of cds so much.

u see we hafta choose our cds for next sem and for e fact that we're based in TAS we're only given 2 choices - jap and arts appreciation. i took jap last sem so no way i can take it again and for those who noes me i cant draw for nuts sake but left with no choice i hafta go ahead and choose it.

and guess wad my dear school did to me, they allocated me with no cds. yes fuck it, i cant even tk smthing i hate now. and wad am i suppose to do now? i applied for vacation cds but im still comtemplating to go or not but now im left with no choice i hafta go even if it kills me or drain my dad's bank account.

to top it off, i've 8 modules in year 3 [according to the subjects analysis i saw] so plus another cds which i MUST tk to graduate that will add up to 9 wonderful modules that i hafta pass. well thankew my dear school, u've a nice way of murdering students.

jean got no cds and qing's name cant be found on any damn page of e list of names for vacation cds, unless they wrote it with invisible ink. now tell me wad e hell is tp up to? and e part that really triggers my anger is we signed up for e damn cds on e first day so now kiasurism dun work anymore so wad are we suppose to do? is this double standards or wad?

i dunoe wad to do, going back to tp tmr i hope i'll solve some matters.

school is such a headache, my life can never get better completely messed up.

like projects isnt enuff to depress us, like we arent already running short of time. why must they add on to our depression now? i really want to start crying, this whole thing is eating me up.


my heart is tearing up, e sight of you sheds some light onto my black gloomy day but i cant sink any deeper than this.